My friends are all busy today, not going to SF or the east bay. Plus I have to save finances for the move in November. Working on a few things have an appointment at collage of Marin on Monday.

I plan to go to the Marin Alano Club for the 4^th of July event. Meeting & BBQ.

My friends are doing OK, and im feeling a little spirituality optimistic.

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Met with YV today, ran errands. Went to the ERC today, meeting with AF later, and going to RC & RM later. Slept OK last night. Took care of starting my expungement process in preparation of getting off probation.

Working on moving, and have a plan. Working on the 8^th step in AA soon.


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Met with LDS missionaries today, met with my sponsor today. Made peace with some of my demons. On AA step 8 right now. Talked to YV today. Have an appointment in a few hours with someone that I lookup to.

Attended a NA meeting last night, went for a long walk today, my feet still hurt from walking in the city this past weekend.

Hung out with RT today and played video games after my appointment with my sponsor.

Have an appt. at collage of marin next week.

Leigh McInnis Gaetjens PO Box 150063 San Rafael, CA 94915-0063 (415) 572-4169 lmgaetjens@gmail.com

Slept better last night, trying to find peace in my recovery and find balance.
I am meeting with my AA sponsor tomorrow so that should be an aid.

I hurt sometimes with SKS he wasn't always that nice to me, but I have a 8th and 9th step at some point I have to work with him. On the other hand it happened for a reason, and is going to lead me to greater things per say.

Taking a week and half off work, to handle some personal matters, going to the Marin public defenders office to pick up an expungement packet to get the ball rolling on that.


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AA STEP 7 (again)
da step 4
oa step 3
slaa step 2



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Dropped off my resume~ this week. At a few places I applied in the city and the east bay. Met with friends as well on Saturday, have an appointment at collage of Marin on Monday irine is meeting me there.

Met with YV also today. Haven't been sleeping as well, more on that later.

Met with some old friends, worked at @ TSA today, taking a week and half vacation to clear my head somewhat. Perhaps im burned out a little.

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I found peace with some of my inner demons. I think my life is getting better one day at a time, im working a good spiritual program. I'm not sure if I agree with religion or not anymore, some might argue for a long time I lived in sin. That may or may not be true, im not sure what my viewpoints are anymore.

Have an appointment at a collage next week. Dropped off my resume~ a few places this weekend in the city and east bay.

I felt lost for a long time in direction, and even depressed but less and less that is the case.

I posted my resume online....easy to find. And backed up files from my computer to my web server.

Have a plan to go back to school, moving in November not sure where yet... but I have a backup plan, and a failsafe backup plan(s) out of Marin county or might couch surf a night or two....lately Ive allays had the door open for me where I want to go

awaiting a warranty replacement for my computer backpack.

Leigh McInnis Gaetjens PO Box 150063 San Rafael, CA 94915-0063 (415) 572-4169 lmgaetjens@gmail.com

Overslept this morning a little, made a AA (H&I) meeting to fill in for the sec who didn't want to become a ﾓdark knightﾔ was interesting at Marin General Hospital. My viewpoints to deal with folks who dont follow the rules someplace are getting to me and remain unpopular with the general population.

Backed up files to my server, thinking of eventually WORKING on a computer science / computer info systems at city collage of San Francisco. As a long term goal, have an appointment at collage of Marin for the time being.

After I get off probation September 7th,2012 I plan to apply for an expungement the judge who handled my case said she would agree to it and thats a work in progress. I may start driving a cab in San Francisco given with the bad California economy, not having much luck with my employment search

I made peace and met with my AA sponsor today...... working on a few things actually getting up around 5AM every morning  and going to bed later

Saw SKS recently. He looked like he might have been still using and not working a good program.
Going to a mens stag meeting today @ Marin Alano club.Leigh McInnis Gaetjens PO Box 150063 San Rafael, CA 94915-0063 (415) 572-4169 lmgaetjens@gmail.com

Hung out with my CDL holding friend BWMCD, and VS who is undergoing some major changes at a coffeshop than walked to radioshack in the mission at 24th st than went to work at TSA in san rafael than went to the 6pm meeting @ marin alano club.


speaking @ mgh tommorow for AA, meeting with sponsor tommorow...


have a drs apointment monday also @ MGH


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met with a few friends today in san francisco. headed over to oakland


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Feeling a bit stressed about my present circumstances though tend to passing as I go onward, down the straight and narrow path to enlightenment.

Sought out a therapist today to deal with some issues im having.... too much pain to discuss...going to visit a friend in the city and the east bay tomorrow...i haven't been going as often but I plan to meet up with 3 or 4 individuals soon

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I feel better today, found a new therpist so to speak..or possibly found a new therapist. Relaunched my rather primitive website again, eventually hope to learn more modern programming techniques. I also feel im getting closer to my computer goals as far as working in the field, im not qualified at the present, but im working on educational, goals for the short and long term.

Talked to someone in depth today about my present stresses, backed up files to my server farm from my computer. I spoke to a old friend today, and am filling in for someone in AA in H&I at Marin general hospital on Sunday.

Spoke to AF & YV today, as well as DLG. Working on contacting an atty for an appeal for something, most likely at present leaning away from professional driving, or at least putting it as an eventual goal when I get older if my health is good. Leaning toward employment and educational goals.

Marin has been a good and bad change for me in ways I wont share as publicly. But I did launch a more private on line journal on my server-farm. To process my more private thoughts.

I'm achieving quite a bit of savings goals, and due to my feet and mouth hurting from dental surgery not going to hang out with friends in the city this weekend. I'm working on some spiritual goals and bringing a speaker into MGH this weekend.

I also am not going to any of the various county fairs this year, for finance reasons, and making goals toward my future.

I hurt sometimes inside though trying to figure out who I am for the longest time I thought I had the answers, but I do-not. I try to find the answers, but also dont wish to shut the door on my past. Even though I feel on one had I wasted some of my life away on the other hand, of flip side I feel I gained better insight into myself and who I am and who I'm not.

I keep working toward a better and brighter future.

Leigh McInnis Gaetjens PO Box 150063 San Rafael, CA 94915-0063 (415) 572-4169 lmgaetjens@gmail.com

Coded HTML, uploaded files to the server. Mirroring a few sites and hosting a few for friends........ feels good to be an web administrator again so to speak. Talked to a friend of mine overseas on my web cam and instant messenger over the INTERNET sure beats international calling.

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Had interesting debate on IRC, a few individuals considered me rather radical....I suppose that could be an definition of myself, perhaps controversial.

I have a plan, and im sticking to it, to move yet again...Im keeping tight lipped about it for now, talked to a old friend who is undergoing an operation soon.

Working on a few things and have a plan for a radical server, domain name, blog of techie Gothic punk and general info of my opinions despite some not agreeing with me, and remaining unpopular in California in some circles.

Ill post more details as they become ready to become posted or I feel comfortable sharing on the INTERNET.

Leigh McInnis Gaetjens PO Box 150063 San Rafael, CA 94915-0063 (415) 572-4169 lmgaetjens@gmail.com

Life on the move......again

Pondering my future? Soon......

Had a good nights sleep last night, some of my roommates say I was snoring rather loudly. I met with probation officer today, talked to public defender today and getting off probation and my expungement around September 7th , 2012.

I called my AA sponsor, I have an appointment at the disability office today, and may qualify for additional benefits.

Talked to YV today, and a few other folks. Working a serious OA,DA & SLAA Program, going to bed earlier and learning to be a better parent to myself.

Awaiting a package in the mail...more details to follow.

Leigh McInnis Gaetjens PO Box 150063 San Rafael, CA 94915-0063 (415) 572-4169 lmgaetjens@gmail.com

Visted a friend or two this morning, have a big appointment tomorrow that might lead to something wonderful so to speak. My dental work is feeling better, awaiting a package.

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Made peace with some of my demons. Have some things to take care of today, going to hit up a meeting today. Going to possibly take an adventure of sorts today. I slept ok went to bed around 12:30 this morning and awoken around 9AM. Not as early as usual when I awaken at 4am or so and go to bed around 930pm.

Called my wonderful sponsor yesterday to discuss something, and called probation as well to discuss something.

Ate a big breakfast this morning.

Leigh McInnis Gaetjens PO Box 150063 San Rafael, CA 94915-0063 (415) 572-4169 lmgaetjens@gmail.com

Oh I also quit fooling around with psycho women and quit paying for someone elses phone, and awaiting for them to return the android tablet I rooted. Though I did put spyware on it, I can track it sort of and spy on others.....


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The the plan is simple, stay & clean and sober and work the 12-steps. Called my sponsor about my dental work and some medication I have to take. Also called probation and other folks to inform them about this matter. I have to use a oral rinse to keep the swelling down and keep my dental work from getting infected.

I went to Oakland today to obtain a certified copy of my birth certificate from the clerk recorders office. Went to a meeting in the east bay met with AF, called a few friends, had peets coffee a friend bought it for me.

Making progress in my finance goals, savings and toward a brighter future have an appointment for school two appointments actually in the next 2 months from now, have a few other things to do today.

Sent a few e-mails out to friends, family and support groups. Stopped by the salvation army to check on something see whats going on down at the office. About to take a shower before I eat dinner.

Still working on my website, and a few other things. On step 7 still. In AA. Step 4 in OA,DA,SLAA. Progress not perfection I think, discussed with a friend some of the LDS faith and my take on it having gone that route, I find spirituality more in 12-step meetings than I do religion these days. I suppose I would call myself agnostic or spiritual not religious.

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I ran into someone from a 12step program that wonders “if I'm still going to meetings?” which I am just not as many at the Marin Alano club, I have swapped up meetings as of present living up in novato. Have to go to the almedia county clerk recorders office to obtain a certified copy of my birth certificate tomorrow. I need it for a appointment on Monday at the disability office.

Used a gift card today @ star-bucks its hot lately. I went to the dentist today and was issued prescriptions for dental pain and a oral wash. I'm getting used to tooth #32 removed and the pain is less painful.

Attempted to contact an atty about the disabled adult child thing im working on which I seem to qualify. And is the reasoning around going to the clerk recorders office.

Looking forward towards getting off probation and getting an expungement from the judge after September 7^{th 2012}

Making progress in various 12-step programs, pondering not going back to my old faith given the pain and issues it caused me and when others were not as supportive and I felt overly judgmental watched a good documentary on religious bullcrap. I dont think I do religion anymore, but have a god of my own understanding or higher power to speak of.

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In much less pain after going to the dentist, in much less pain though I am still in pain. Taking Advil 800mg for the pain. Going back to school have two appointments in July and august.

Working on my goals, and working toward my goals. Living in novato right now, look forward towards returning to San Rafael. Making progress in my short and long term goals. One day at a time, meeting with my wonderful AA sponsor tomorrow.

Went to a few meetings today, slept OK was in bed by midnight, up late preforming research on the INTERNET @ home.

taking a class for the peer counceling at the San Rafael Enterprise Resource Center, though I may have a conflict with the other classes Ill be taking in Marin County.

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Pain is better, rested today. Met with a friend applied for an apartment out of town, might pull a geographical after probation ends September 7^th.but im likely to remain in Marin for a while, for the time being.

I called my AA sponsor today, and took care of some personal logistical planning after probation such as housing, employment, educational goals. And also continue to progress in other matters in my life and improving myself as an individual.

I am glad I avoided controlled doctor prescribed drugs on my dental surgery. I also made peace with a few things in my past, presently I am shopping around for a therapist sort of, have two potential candidates.

Have a follow up dentist appointment next week, hope all is well.

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Didn't sleep well last night, in dental pain again. I hurt again and awoke last night in massive pain yet again the ibuprofen isn't working to well. Going to dental clinic today, have an appointment at a specialist in about a month. Took the day off work to take care of business.

I don't think I'm going to be able to meet with my sponsor today given I have dental & other appointments to take care of.... have to put off step 7 in AA till next week.

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Took care of dental work today but have to go back to a specialist in July, turns out I lost one of my wisdom teeth and its too close to the gum line for the regular dentist to extract whats left, sadly im in massive pain, off and on but over the counter medication (Advil) helps greatly.

I could have made a more recent appointment but would have had to travel to napa, pinole or vicaville. I dont think I want to make that trip despite having a friend or two near those areas.

Im planning my future have an disability appointment on the 18^th of June to see if im entiled to additional benefits, but my heart is set on returning to work.

I may travel some in November if things dont work out or go see family in New Orleans Perhaps on a 15 day Amtrak rail pass. Just a day or two in New Orleans. Anyway more details to follow.

Im also checking out SLE which I hate the idea of going into a institution and dont like places that make money off the program, but on the other hand its better than possibly having no place to go.

Im making progress in my goals, went to the bank today to discuss something and obtain documents.

I also have to go to work tommorow and meet with my AA sponsor, and need to make it to some DA,OA,SLAA meetings.

Making peace with my inner demons, someone accused me of something untrue at the time. Ive been guilty of being a busy-body in the past, but I was standing up lightheaded staring into space due to my dental issues and pain which I didn't sleep very well last night I only got 3 hours of sleep and had to be out the door by 7am

I am presently doing laundry as I compose this blog post.

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Had a productive day with PG and YV. Making progress in my continued recovery from insanity. Had my last session with RD. going to find a new therapist eventually, right now I have other priority.

Met with my counselor, and made an appointment with the disabled students program @ collage of Marin. Continuing to grow as an individual. A friend from orange county is coming to SF towards the end of June. Might meet up with an old friend.

Paid bills on time, eating less still making progress in OA & AA on step 7 in AA. I also am working a very good DA program step 4, and SLAA program.

Taked to BWD via text and VS via text messaging.

Codeing my new website which im going to launch next year sometime. Also dropping off my resume various places

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My feelings of pain have largely gone away, just attended a wonderful meeting at the marin alano club, and shared a little of my pain.... after I get through this rough time, ill share more on it...perhaps away from the Alano club... some people there are childish.

Enjoying my time in novato, in San Rafael as a write this at star bucks my sponsors favorite haunt. About to head back to novato.. was thinking of going to the beach in Marin today.. but im going to put that off until next weekend.

Saving money towards my new employment, educational and housing goals. Making progress and practicing the steps of DA. Continuing to loose weight, and practicing the steps of OA. Making progress but not prefecture in SLAA. On step 6 in AA, soon to be on step 7.

got very sweaty today, didn't make the NAMI walk in San Francisco due to tooth pain, went on a hike in San Rafael and got very sweaty and dirty as I fell down, and cleaned my self up a little. Looking forward toward taking a shower back at the ranch.

Thinking of launching my blog or website again, have other priority before I purchase a domain name again and pay for hosting. Using the blogger and Google plus, have some interesting followers of my blog at the present or blog 2.0

Stayed up way too late last night e-mailing resume, and playing CIV IV. (4).

and counterstrike as well.

Not doing as many SETI @ home cycles on the BONIC program. Might go to a 3pm mens meeting at marin alano club possibly.

Going to take that Amtrak trip in February or march of next year perhaps. Going to also discuss some 9^th step stuff to do in New Orleans & Houston as well as Salt Lake City.

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