I ran into someone from a 12step program that wonders “if I'm still going to meetings?” which I am just not as many at the Marin Alano club, I have swapped up meetings as of present living up in novato. Have to go to the almedia county clerk recorders office to obtain a certified copy of my birth certificate tomorrow. I need it for a appointment on Monday at the disability office.

Used a gift card today @ star-bucks its hot lately. I went to the dentist today and was issued prescriptions for dental pain and a oral wash. I'm getting used to tooth #32 removed and the pain is less painful.

Attempted to contact an atty about the disabled adult child thing im working on which I seem to qualify. And is the reasoning around going to the clerk recorders office.

Looking forward towards getting off probation and getting an expungement from the judge after September 7^{th 2012}

Making progress in various 12-step programs, pondering not going back to my old faith given the pain and issues it caused me and when others were not as supportive and I felt overly judgmental watched a good documentary on religious bullcrap. I dont think I do religion anymore, but have a god of my own understanding or higher power to speak of.

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My feelings of pain have largely gone away, just attended a wonderful meeting at the marin alano club, and shared a little of my pain.... after I get through this rough time, ill share more on it...perhaps away from the Alano club... some people there are childish.

Enjoying my time in novato, in San Rafael as a write this at star bucks my sponsors favorite haunt. About to head back to novato.. was thinking of going to the beach in Marin today.. but im going to put that off until next weekend.

Saving money towards my new employment, educational and housing goals. Making progress and practicing the steps of DA. Continuing to loose weight, and practicing the steps of OA. Making progress but not prefecture in SLAA. On step 6 in AA, soon to be on step 7.

got very sweaty today, didn't make the NAMI walk in San Francisco due to tooth pain, went on a hike in San Rafael and got very sweaty and dirty as I fell down, and cleaned my self up a little. Looking forward toward taking a shower back at the ranch.

Thinking of launching my blog or website again, have other priority before I purchase a domain name again and pay for hosting. Using the blogger and Google plus, have some interesting followers of my blog at the present or blog 2.0

Stayed up way too late last night e-mailing resume, and playing CIV IV. (4).

and counterstrike as well.

Not doing as many SETI @ home cycles on the BONIC program. Might go to a 3pm mens meeting at marin alano club possibly.

Going to take that Amtrak trip in February or march of next year perhaps. Going to also discuss some 9^th step stuff to do in New Orleans & Houston as well as Salt Lake City.

Leigh McInnis Gaetjens PO Box 150063 San Rafael, CA 94915-0063 (415) 572-4169 lmgaetjens@gmail.com

had a further falling out with a friend today trying to work a honest program & come clean. I discussed this with my therpist today. life is good though but could be far worse, i have my basics met and some extras.

Met with Y today and that went swell. went to the erc today after therpist, went for a walk, conitnueing to loose weight and progress in oa, going to a na aa meeting this week is on my to do list.




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slept well, awake at 4:30 am this morning, well rested even though i feel asleep shortly after midnight. going to a job fair for whole foods market in a week. Taking life as it comes to me, i hope to god while im living at my present location untill my apartment is ready, i dont have to do one of those relapse prevention bullshit groups, i dont like substance abuse groups other than aa, or aa meetings that arnt officaly listed in the directory or have a gsr or igr/ifb rep that dont extend the hand of aa at that service level.

I also like DA, OA, SLAA meeting which help me with various other additions such as compulsive debiting, compulsive overeating or sex addition.

even though im going a dark period currently, i see the light @ the end of the tunnel. though a bit far away


lately and in the past i feel perscution or fear of it, from people from my past or becuase of various dry drunk spells in recovery, my mental break down, my 15 seconds of shame, my complusive overeating, my sex addition, or complusive debiting.

Im not going to "go out over this" i shared some of this with YV and RD in a email i sent before bed last night, its good to get things out and not bottle it up so to speak KM & DB said when i have my hearing in september ill be done with probation and likely now i can start the process of my expungement at least even though my crime shows up on google it wont show up on my driving record, and than after my expungment i can slowly one day @ a time work toward my goal of professional truck driving. i plan to drive a taxi in the city for a while to boost my resume towards that goal.


Looking back i feel i wasted a lot of time in soberity, talked to a old friend from lambda center in houston where I became sober on july 13, 2007. i just had underlying issues which are under control and became an unwelcome hanger on at some places we might get together for some reunion of soberity and the fellowship

sadly i didnt really do aa meetings in new orleans i look foward to my upcoming trip there in 2013 to do so, im likely to go on an amtrak rail pass around the country for two weeks out of town stopping in New Orleans and possibly Houston Salt Lake city and Los angles area , possibly with a run to porland and seattle as well.

the wifi up here is ok, but sometimes it sucks. i think i might use my celluar modem gets coverage up here too many folks where im living useing up bandwith.



Leigh McInnis Gaetjens PO Box 150063 San Rafael, CA 94915-0063 (415) 572-4169 lmgaetjens@gmail.com

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Leigh McInnis Gaetjens PO Box 150063 San Rafael, CA 94915-0063 (415) 572-4169 lmgaetjens@gmail.com